cause of my demise. I know you’ve tried to cheer me up and motivate me. You’re probably sick of me. run through of recent days to better explain my mood.
- Get back math paper 2 mock first thing in the morning. 58. for my stronger paper. for an easy paper. such joy.
- geog. overall did badly, but human essay was terrible again. Even worse this time. 8/25, 4 and 4. For population. 12/25 for glob. Feels like Prelims essay again. But worse. I studied for human both times. Not like crazy, but I studied.
- coco comes and tells me that people are doing really well for geog. And my favourite – “oh you didn’t score well for essay.” Perhaps it was meant as a statement but yeah you didn’t have to point it out. After that he tells me he got 38 (or 39?) for essay.
- Oh. Halfway through lecture. He commented on my insta picture of him – “wth don’t take picture without telling me please.” Small shit I know but it hurt. Why was the wth needed. And please I only take and post photos of people I am fond of. ended up deleting the photo after considering after lecture.
- Stupid dayre posts stupid shit which makes me angry.
Friday – starts of well
- Econs questions all stuck like shit. Everything is foreign and taking so long to go through. Haven’t even touched past A level papers yet. Frustrated but not too bad.
- Cannot do simple vectors questions. Feels freaking terrible.
- Lose drive.
- Do nothing for 2.5 hours after I get home in order to fall asleep with him. Call wasn’t bad, but still slept with a heavy heart.
- Wake up 1.5 hours late. the last 1 hour was the most infuriating.
- Do nothing the entire day but a GP paper and flip through geog pop resource.
- type this.
I have to study either way. whether I’m happy or not. sorry if you don’t want to talk to me after reading this .