don’t want to hurt you anymore / I’m too childish for this still? Don’t know if this is the best idea, what if I’m not invited back anymore? How long? Selfish considerations of course. I’m thinking here that at least for now.. till I get my mind in order.. it may rather be better for you if I don’t contact you ie drag you down. I hope, I believe that you’ll be okay without me for a bit.
Feel like puking