The header for wordpress today is rainbow coloured, you know why, self.

I wish I had the ability to make it all okay again. It worries me looking at her in this state, I want to do something but what can I do? All I can do is try to talk to her and make her laugh but oh we know it isn’t really enough. I can say with 100% certainty that you’re one of my closest friends, and I know I am too one of yours. But despite it all there’s an element of privacy and I’m fine with that really but gosh I wish I could help you more. You’re so so so private and protected and walled up and even I have no idea what made you hurt this bad but I have my hints. But I still don’t know. But love I wish I could help. I wish I could pull her out of this situation, I don’t know, would a new surrounding help? JC wasn’t the way for you and damn your chem teacher for goodness sake. It must feel like everything is breaking up around you. And honestly I worry how far gone you are, how can we get you back? You worry me, my dear.


Sunshine x Molestor Moon

1.36am: so I had to go and check where we ended off in the previous part, hahah. Can’t write much today because I’ll be meeting you tomorrow to go and check out your new Alienware so yesh.

but, where were we again?? oh, yes. The road crossing. So we were walking into Orchard Gateway, me thinks; we were kinda confused about where we were. Or at least, I was. I recall feeling so high and happy and haha I was hugging your waist the entire time – have I ever mentioned how amazing it is to do that? I love that. Love it equally when you hold me (though actually do you hold my waist??? TBH I can’t recall if you do that or just hold me by my shoulders HAHA dayum ok I shall take more notice :p) but yes. We were walking in the super atas place and there was this shop selling jewellery I recall and I was thinking about it and how it was so expensive and we were walking when suddenly you pulled away from me and walked towards this group of people and pushed this guy and I was like OH Daym we got spotted by your friends. hahaha. took me awhile to realise that they were malaysians, I saw Chin Chin and was quite confused for a bit, like why does she look so familiar? and the other girl was staring at me/smiling ahaha I’ve no idea I just pretended I didn’t know you, honestly. It was super funny ahahah and then later you told me that the girl in the pink shirt was Chin Chin and she had warn that shirt 2x in a row and you had had lunch with them today. I remember you said this as we walked out of the mall, we saw these red long sitting areas and you commented that it looked like.. New York, or something? I’m not sure. But you sounded so amazed by it all, haha. So cute.

After all that we decided to go to Ion to get into their rooftop thingy on the 55th floor. Walked like 600m to get there gosh and were so convinced that we wouldn’t see your juniors again but NOOO as we would find out later ahahah! But yesh. Got to ion and we were super underdressed it was actually quite ridiculous my gosh. Slippers and stuff in the atas levels LOL. So we took the escalators up and tried to find the lift to the 55th floor but eventually, with research, realised it 1) cost like $16 and b) was closed. /weeps. The view would have been amazing. But oh wells 🙂 We shall go somewhere else (Duxton rooftop garden cough cough or MBS the sky park there cough). So on the escalator down I kept calling you my prince for some reason haha and you were fakely insulted oh gosh it was so fun. Such stupid things and games with you are the best ever, I love that you’re so easy to be stupid and silly with, and how you really become so silly with me. It honestly feels so happy when you’re like that, ah I really love it. Saying this reminds me of the bimbo moment you had in Daiso HAHA it was legit freaking funny! I can’t exactly recall what you said but heavens I laughed so bad. Ah that was something I really didn’t expect from you. Made me love you a little more.

You were so shocked they had a Daiso at Ion and was like, “they put one here so that people can say that they shopped at Ion right” hahaha lame sia. But ey, you never know 😉 no idea what we went to Diaso for actually ahah but I made you wear a flower crown and may I just say that you are absolutely lovable ah.. so cute. And you entertain me so :p (maybe unwillingly but hehe you do stupid things for me.. thanks moonlight 🙂 :p) We also played a little of catching around the shelves of Daiso ahaha I swear I love that game. The best is still at Giant that time though (Suntec, the day we had Sumo Salad. We played like stupid around the shelves, laughing super hard and!! I almost caught you hahah you were legit shocked ah damn hilarious. And sometimes when we “caught” each other at the toys section you would pull me in for a quick kiss ahh.. It made me so very happy.) (Also reminds me of the time we played a more exteme form of this game in some mall near orchard.. Where I would try to chase you ahha and eventually lost you in the toilets LOL do you recall?) But yes. I realise that I have so many happy memories with you.. So many times spent laughing and being stupid with you.. Thank you for all of those times, my sunshine. // You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy, when skies are grey. You’ll never know dear, how much I love you, so please don’t take my sunshine away. (You sang it to me today, bcos you were telling me how your sis calls me sunshine. She so cute btw. But yes. You sang it and I was like.. /ahhh. You really sing lovely, you’ll deny this for sure I know. I do adore hearing you sing, though. I think a recording of you singing would make me really happy.. recordings, even better. Actually that now makes me crave your singing.. Ah I’ll especially miss it so when you go back home. idk why I keep being reminded of you going back – its just like the thought of As I guess. Always at the back of my mind. Haiz. ohwell. I’ll miss you really much… and it won’t be easy (sure have a few squabbles here and there.. but I’ll miss you so. Texting you and calling you isn’t a sufficient replacement for seeing you in the flesh. Feeling you by my side, smelling you (yes. heh.) miss you. wish I could hold you now and go to sleep..)

I lost myself. Oh right. Bought bubble tea from each a cup and you let me pick the drink and chose 70% sugar instead of 100%.. Thank you love. I really appreciate your.. i can’t think of an appropriate word now, but.. Your gesture. How you let me choose instead of chocolate milk or the like :p I do notice your actions, and thank you for it :’) so whilst we were waiting for the drink WE SAW YOUR JUNIORS AGAIN FOR THE THIRD TIME. like wat are they stalking us ahaha it was pretty damn hilarious yet again. Should have taken a photo with them man hahha. Funneh.

One last part to go, the bus ride home. I realise that I detoured quite some today but eh, what can I say :p mmm its late, I’m gonna blowdry my hair then brush teeth and sleep.. more work tomorrow (hopefully more productive!!) and then to see you 🙂 ❤ and then jts. Its gonna be a fun day 🙂 eep. Love you my molestor moon :p See you soon x



I deserve a kiss

Its 12.41am and I really should be asleep because well, there’s like 5 straight hours of class tomorrow. I should be doing work whilst waiting for the laundry to finish but hey let’s just write this first. hehe. Honestly, it does feel like my memory is slipping me.. I think I really need to begin putting in more effort in recording things again.

I saw my previous post and honestly, it does feel so very long ago. Things feel so much better, so very happy and you’re so happy and loving and honestly it feels utterly amazing. This is the person I fell in love with, and if I recall correctly.. Yesterday was the day I fell in love with you all over again.

How did it begin again? oh, right. It was Vesak Day and there was noone home. We had met up the day before, on Sunday so we decided that it would be better for us to stay home and do our work (btw lol, we haven’t started much work today either haha and its already Wednesday. tbh I think I’m pretty screwed but at the same time I have yet to start panicking so okay. But that’s another story for another day.) Yes. There was noone home and I was home alone for hoursss. Honestly I was a little miffed in the beginning because yeah, I had arranged for it such that the house would be empty but you weren’t here so I was like meh 😦 I really crave cuddle sessions, as you can tell by this. heh. Buuut in the end I got myself out of the funk (by doing loads of laundry and making smoothies LOL) and we ended up Skyping 🙂 A few scares later and we decided that it would be nice to meet up in the evening. /cue travel.

and hahah you stupid kid got distracted with chess ahaha and only realised when I was crossing the bridge to your place. but oh wells. Bought some damn nice smelling banana bread. And sat by the fountain waiting aaaand you came finally! I don’t know why, but you sounded especially apologetic when you apologised and I was quite.. touched? Not sure if that was the right word but yeah it was a good emotion. Went for prata at the usual place (hahah, see how I refer to it as the “usual” place) and I decided to get roti john for once, and you got the mushroom/cheese prata + egg + kosong, which is the best to you but can only eat one of bcos its too oily. Your pratas came super fast and I started helping myself to them and you encouraged me ahaha :p but yeah they were really really nice. And! you actually fed me quite a few bites of prata.. I was really amazed. And idk, it just made me really happy. Didn’t expect of you to feed me, for you to be comfortable enough to do so. Was quite a surprise, honestly. But a happy one. really. And omg we met the uncle knoowsss and the aunty hahah up to now I still can’t believe that they legit appeared omg we were just talking about it so casually ahaha. AND I swear! that cat. Its been such a long while since a cat came up to me like that and oh gosh I miss it. And it was such a plesure and joy watching you play with the cat (as best as you could without your hands, that is..) Like you walked away to the poles and it followed you so cutely and your smile my god. It was so bright and happy and my gosh I swear I love it. It made me so happy to watch you. You were really cute. I even have some photos :p

After that.. hmm. We took a bus (196? 14? I really have no idea lol) to Orchard, I think. I honestly can’t recall the exact locations but we got off and I was so lepakly dressed and still you said I looked nice. Can’t believe you like my hair, its the usual “post-bath” hairstyle but hey, you like how I look after I bathe so yeah what can I say man :p but yeah. We waited so long for the bus because I’ve no idea, it just took really long. And I don’t even know what set us off but hahaaha we were standing in the pathway slightly off the bus stop and you were telling me about your teacher mentor. And you were super hilarious; with each syllable you would push me once on the shoulder haahh and ah, it was just hilarious. I hope you can remember it, what I mean 🙂 And I started pushing you back and idek, it just escalated from there. You were telling me about her shorts (in some memorised fashion, you repeated the opening part quite a few times cos I kept repeating it back to you and pushing you haha) and her pink top (or white) or something and the other half was white and all I could think of was that eh it was like period red mixed with white HAHA I have no idea why I was thinking of that but yes. And you were saying how she’s some Arabian (? or Egyptian?) princess and I burst out laughing.. with water in my mouth. i realise that having water in your mouth makes everything so much more hilarious ahaha because I swear I almost spit it out laughing. And you were laughing so hard at me too my god you were laughing so loudly and happily and it was really just pure happiness. And then when I finally swallowed and took another sip of water, you called me a “queen” and I just spit my water out in laughter and we burst out laughing so damn badly omg you laughed and laughed and had to walk away HAHA and I was doubled over trying no to die o alughter. And I remember that you told me to stop drinking water and laughing because if not the plants would die :p

The bus ride was equally damn hilarious. We boarded the bus when the sun was still up, I remember watching the sunset through the bus/whilst we were walking from the bus when we got off. I want to lie somewhere and watch the skies with you. Then again, practically anything next to you is lovely. Back to it, anyways: We boarded and you commented how we always seem to be riding the older buses recently. So yeah, we sat at the back; this is the sort that has an open area at the back of the top deck so we sat there. And I don’t know… I can’t remeber what we talked about, just that we had an insane tickle war and there was so much frantic and laughter and holding of hands and nuzzling and tickling and noise and.. love. It felt like the beginning of the relationship all over again, you know what I mean? It felt like a fresh start and it felt like you were in love again. There was kissing and nuzzling, but also the “breaking of bones” and a very stressed king and a doctor who I ended up cheating on hahah and at one point you said something like how you prefer this to blowjobs and.. yes. I do too. The intimacy and joy and closeness, I tell you.. Its something really amazing. When we finally alighted we were both drunk on laughter and happiness and love and kisses and it was just so retarded. You sang the cuppycake song to me with cumdrops HAHAHA and I smashed your finger into the traffic light by mistake and ended up kissing your booboo better :p you’re adorable I swear. I remember the whole time your arm was just around me and we were walking/you were dragging me and my arm was around you or we were holding hands or linking arms; its been such a long time since we did such things so happily and its really beautiful. Yesterday.. was really an amazing day.

Its 1.12am and I’ve class tomorrow so I gotta stop writing for now, but I really don’t want to. Writing all this has reminded me of everything that we did and it makes me so happy. Yesterday honestly was the day I fell in love with you again. Its gonna take a long time for me to finish writing all of this, I think – there’s just so much to write because every memory is worth capturing and remembering and I really want to remember tomorrow for as long as I can. I’ll be back tomorrow, I hope. And if you happen to be reading this, my love; I love you. Goodnight for now 🙂 I’ll see you tomorrow.